Wednesday, June 30, 2010
Sunday, June 27, 2010
Friday, June 25, 2010
Thursday, June 24, 2010
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
Monday, June 21, 2010
I hate feeling like I'm being neurotic. I get all self-conscious, and try and correct what I've done or said, ultimately making me look more neurotic. At least that's what I think I do. I think a lot. Too much maybe.
neurosis (n-rss)
A psychological state characterized by excessive anxiety or insecurity without evidence of neurologic or other organic disease, sometimes accompanied by defensive or immature behaviours.
On a lighter note; I had my last exam today. I cannot wait to never return to that school. Oh and be able to sleep so much more now that school's done. Sleep's always good.
Sunday, June 20, 2010
Yesterday after we had the craziest rain fall, then sun was so pretty. This photo was taken on my way home; I couldn't resist. Too pretty.
In other news; I really need to learn how to control my reactions. Or over-reactions. They just prove to make everything so much worse for me.
While I'm working on that, I'll just keep listening to my sad playlist. Cryin', cryin', cryin' every time.
:Blood by The Middle East
:Beach Baby by Bon Iver
:Sail On Heaven's Seas by Ben and Jason
:Marching Bands of Manhattan by Death Cab For Cutie
:The Funeral by Band of Horses
:Home and Somewhere Else by Mimicking Birds.
Friday, June 18, 2010
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
Lost and Losing
Plucking my courage and betraying my trust. Pluck. Pluck. Pluck. You are. You do. We are.
Just lost and losing - at least until you fill in all the gaps for me.
Sunday, June 13, 2010
Friday, June 11, 2010
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
In the mourning:
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
It's becoming increasingly easier to drown in nostalgia with all that's been going on. It's unbelievable the effect a person has on a group of people even when those affected didn't always hold a personal connection with him. Everybody will grieve in their own way and I feel that I have the right to feel overwhelmingly sad for them. Them, him, all of them. I hate to see those that I surround myself with go through something of this measure in which I couldn't even begin to comprehend. "Death: Death is another important affair among followers. It is not as solemn as a normal funeral, and no religious person is required. The funeral is usually just close family members retelling stories of the deceased’s good deeds and why they expect the person to pass into a peaceful Plain. People are expected to wear bright colours to remind them of the happiness the deceased had impressed upon then. In this way, young children are not taught to fear death and it is not seen as such a scary thing. In this religion, death is simply like a hermit crab changing shells. The funeral takes place after the normal 3 day grieving period and after the funeral people are expected to mourn for the dead no longer."
Monday, June 7, 2010
Sunday, June 6, 2010
Thursday, June 3, 2010
Whispering incoherent thoughts: wishing the message could get across.
Too much at once on one hand, one person. Too little at a time on the other, another person.
I was asked on formspring what my three wishes would be, they are as follows:
1: I would like to know who each and every question on that damn website is from. I don't like the anonymity in that way.
2: I wished that people would be able to read me. Although I'd only like people to be able to read me when I want them to. Other times I'd much prefer my solitude.
3: I hoped that things wouldn't bother me as much as they do. Once I have something on my mind that doesn't sit right - it keeps plucking at my brain until it's addressed.
Why is everything so complicated? I probably make it like that.
In other news; we had a very successful day of present giving, and balloon blowing, and sushi eating. Here's to the next one.
So
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
Some Of The Books I've Read, That You Should Probably Read Too.
:Columbine
by Dave Cullen
:Choke
by Chuck Palahiuk
:Fight Club
by Chuck Palahniuk
:Lolita
by Vladimir Nabokov
:Tweak
by Nic Sheff
:Into The Wild
by Jon Krakauer
:Life of Pi
by Yann Martel
:The Book Of Negroes
by Lawrence Hill
:The Sirens of Titan
by Chuck Klosterman
:A Million Little Pieces
by James Frey
:Candide
by Voltaire
:Killing Yourself To Live
by Chuck Klosterman
:The Virgin Suicides
by Jeffery Eugenides
A very very happy birthday to Teresa!
P.S.
To come later today: Books that I've read, that you should probably read too.
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